my music lately ::

 

tie this as a string around your finger ::

balance is in the zone of anticipation 
anticipation is best when present
and presence cannot be attained
when the pendulum has swung 

too far from its center

the eve before the eve of the new year...

had a slumber party last night.

i havent stayed over at a friends house for easily over a year. 

it was wonderful fun. 

we cracked open a huge enormous bottle of champagne. *happy new year

watched some hilarious comedians on netflix.. 

talked about race, the odd trait/emotion of racism, cats, babies, eating habits, names, thong underwear (so 90's), blood type.... oh the things women talk about ! 

at one point during our talking, i said "i love when you can learn things when talking to certain people" 

its true! don't you LOVE when you can talk to certain people and you feel inspired & you feel like you are gaining knowledge and wisdom & taking in more than you thought you could in just a 'silly' conversation? 

i love being a woman. & i love having that connection with other women. we are such powerful & knowledgeable creatures. (some of us at least...) 

so next week, i am getting my hair dyed dark. no more blonde cassaundra. she is GONE! with this new year,you all will see a transformation. good things are going to be opening up for me. i have big plans and beautiful dreams that are going to come true. and no.... its not because im dying my hair dark... thats just a fun appearance change... i like to do that every new year. 

i have to fulfill my dreams day by day. i cant do long term... its too hard for my mind to plan that. i work better with spontaneity... 

HAVE A BEAUTIFUL NEW YEARS

REMEMBER TO BE NICE TO EVERYONE 

AND TO BE YOURSELF  

MAKE FRIENDS WHERE EVER YOU GO 

ABSORB THE GOODNESS IN EVERYDAY

HELP OTHERS & YOURSELF

& LAUGH . EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

new years

europe

seems more than appropriate
considering i got new luggage.... plaid luggage...
which is just so perfectly & appropriately London style.
so it means i should go off !

got new insoles for my shoes... check
amazing books to read on my way ... check
cute clothes & warmth... check.

its probably all in my head.
but i feel like i could totally fit in there.
i have burberry sunglasses... i love tea & crumpets.
i mean , what more do you need england?
plus i dont have to learn a new language.
seems like a pretty awesome place to be

albeit , i wont just be there. i'll be all over.
it'll just be like 'home base'
this is what i want to do.
and i am going to work toward it
this new year ... is FRESH
unattached .
motivated

all that stuff .

happy christmas everyone
ive got a fat cat on my lap
& some home made potato leek soup brewin


(even tho its been winter for only 5 days... im already over it)



lit up ice.... experiment.
enjoy

an insincere and evil person is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil person will wound your mind.

monsoon shake .

sometimes all you can do is laugh
LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH

really hard
and remind yourself
that even tho right now is super ridiculous
down the line.... it'll all pan out
and make sense

and that YOU (im speaking in the 3rd person)
will be so much more successful & fulfilled
than the people YOU are so disgusted with right now


and just remember
that everything you are working toward
and the things you are saving
and the things you are sacrificing
and the people you are surrounding yourself with
and the plentiful friends you keep close
and dear & sacred & special

& the laughter, good, happiness & encouragement
that i give to others around me
will one day ,
very soon
pay off
and i will be satisfied
and glowing
and gleaming & glistening
and maybe even BURSTING
with genuine happiness,
BLISS, GRATIFICATION, ELATION &
maybe.... just maybe
contentment.