a list of things

i love making lists.

here are some things i want to do.
and want. blah blah blah. want want want.
need need need.



. to eat better
. be nice
. travel to hawaii, costa rica, europe, anywhere i wanna go
because its gonna happen and i'm gonna find what i'm looking for.
. save money
. try snowboarding , since i have all the right gear.
. run more
. wash my face every night
. send more mail
. leave it in the past and forget about it <--- now
. sell those sorel boots, you wont need them where you're headed.
. wear those coach glasses more
. update your etsy as much as possible ! :: http://www.etsy.com/shop/cinnamonnymph
. encourage all women to be friendly to each other
. be friendly to all women
. eat more quinoa
. READ MORE
. figure out what you want to do with yourself
. study birds
. go to mexico and swim with whales
. stop having horrible car luck (thanks dad, somehow luck can be genetic)
. christmas cookie candle ...
. work out , run stairs, get babe'n
. keep trying on the new bikini ... for motivation of course
. post more photos
. blog more . its fun to look back on what i said

dreamin

i hate having dreams that seem real

do you think dreams are things that can actually happen?
because.... i'd sure like that.

if you see prince harry, tell him i say hi.


which reminds me. i think im going to go to europe.
paris & london. those cliche travel destinations.
i got nothin else to do.


i wish that were true
i got sooooo much to do.
but i really need to get away by myself.
is that safe? i dont care. i like to be alone


i wish i could catch a break .


i may not have all those materialistic bullshits
that you all waste your time and money on .
that consumes your lives
& makes you feel better (somehow)
and gives you some sorta purpose
...


but damn, have i got SOUL.

anouk

i love my cat Anouk.

she hates when i travel , but she loves laying on my suitcase

holding it open for me to pack

instead of laying on the blankets i had on the ground

she decides the hiking backpack would be more comfortable...??

she has to be right in the middle of everything & lay on all my things

she cracks me up so much.

i love how much my cat loves me.

she is obsessed with me and i am obsessed with her......

true love

haha!

she

pies & packing

i hate packing.

i love cooking.

so i decided to mix the two today

so that i wouldn't be so annoyed at whats going on.

i think thats fair right?

so i made mini-pies for mitch's early birthday present

& bacon tomato avocado & pasta for his dinner.

here are the mini-pies i made

- apple, blueberry, cherry -

i even put an egg glaze on the top so they are shiny & perfect.

but i'm still really irritated about packing.

there is so much stuff i have to pack.

and i feel sickness coming on. in my throat.

my throat doesn't hurt but it feels different when i swallow

& its had this strange taste in my mouth that wont leave all morning & day.

i feel fuzzy too. i need a hot bath again.

i also don't like my built-in retainer.

i want it removed. decided.

i'm kind of sick of red wine. i think i will switch to white wine for a while.

here is the song i am obsessed with right now : this girl is wonderful and amazing

she rocks my world!

wanderlust

“People travel to faraway places to watch, in fascination, the kind of people they ignore at home.”

saw that quote on my friend sue's facebook.. loved it. of course.

i am thinking of traveling to hawaii at the end of july/beginning of august. i really need to go there. i know i will love it. it just seems magical. and my camera wants to travel and get some photographs. i want a wide angle lens. it would be put to great great use.

where are all my bloggers anyway? i have 49 people who follow me but no one comes to say hello. hmmmm.

i have these two antlers , and i'm not sure what to do with them. i want to hang the big one on my wall. but i need to figure out how.. and where..
and i wish i had the mate to the smaller deer antler so i could mount them both up and use it as a coat rack or soooomething. antlers are so weird. can you imagine just having these huge bones sticking out of your head? i tried it. i knocked my head pretty hard on one bringing it up to my head. haha . it would suck to be attacked by anything with antlers, seriously.

alaska

i found a really great white alaksa sweater at the thrift store. i love wearing it. one day i will go to alaksa. and see the aurora borealis. and moose. and big vast nature. so i can still wear this sweater. regardless of the fact that i have never been , because i plan on going. and i am fond of the place. i'm going to the library today.

yosemite get-away !

so .. yesterday i decided to throw a couple things into my car and head on down good ole hwy 49 to yosemite to meet up with my friend lindsey - who i absolutely love - to have a "before school starts last vacation for who knows how long" trip. so i ended up getting lost for a bit so i was about an hour late getting there. AND my car decided to light up the "check engine" sign all the way there. (in my entire owning of my subaru has never done before.) but it turned out to be nothing but i was still worried for a bit there.

so it was a beautiful day trip. we went swimming at a cool little water hole. we drove to the valley floor and saw half dome, glacier point, some water falls, etc. it was glorious. we ate dinner at the wawonna hotel. and we stayed at cabin 79 in the redwoods. lindseys family owns some cabins up there to rent out so we got to stay in one because it wasnt being rented out, it was real nice! i don't have any photos yet , besides one i took with my camera phone but once lindsey sends the photos we took my way i'll post them up here for you all to see because its sooo beautiful you gotta see it.


but i drove home early bird this morning and the sun was rising as i was driving thru the park and i felt like i was the only person in the world for a while because the scenery and world around me was so.. pretty, chilly, crisp, soft and magic. i like moments like those. here i am now , just very tired. can't wait to show you all photos from my trip..

creme brulee

- making creme brulee and torching the tops to crack them afterward. then eating all of it to myself.

- picking out one by one, the pieces of food that doesn't make anouk throw up. (i am a very dedicated mother) purina is crap, i do not recommend it.

- watching Dexter continuously and almost religiously. it keeps me up at night, i do it on purpose so that i can fall asleep quick with out thoughts of my life to enter my dreams. it works out.

- no one talks to me much, via computer or in real life. i've drifted.

- secretly hoping in the back of my mind that something great will happen to me. except i know from experience that bad things happen all at once so that you don't have to deal with it all the time. so i'm just waiting around for some other bad thing to happen. unless what already happened wasn't bad?

- planning my trip to somewhere. europe i've decided. it can save me money, i can stay with relatives. i've got to brush up on my french. thats what i'm saving up for now. kinda nice to know i can leave far away with out missing anything but my cat.

well its time to go torch my brulee & watch dexter. what a bad habit. audra is mad at me. i wish someone liked me. no one does these days.