Sophie Scholl

Sophie School...
was an incredible movie.

sad & frustrating.
empowering &strong.
brave & heroic.

google her and her amazing life during WW2 because im not about to get into it here

 i love learning about WW2 and the heroic people involved
but it also makes me so upset and horrified and a slew of other upsetting emotions

 because of what was done to so many innocent people

like ive said before it never ceases to amaze me what people will do to others.

Roux Skei

so my kitten Roux has been missing for exactly a week today - very very very sad. i've been stressed out & depressed for a whole week about it. she is only 10 months old. she is my best friend. i call for her every day multiple times. i posted up LOST CAT fliers everywhere, i asked every single neighbor, i went searching for her, called & checked in at each animal shelter/pound .... nothing.

two of my friends who are animal intuitive's have been giving me feedback & yesterday they both felt that roux was at peace and no longer alive....

super super sad. and i hope its not true. i miss her so much.

she was my 22nd birthday present. i looked for an entire week at tons of ads for kittens and i picked HER! my little tiny, semi-cross eyed, kind of retarded, fearless, playful, LOUD, mischievous, random, hilarious, bent whiskered kitty ROUX SKEI. i love her so much ! please send the best vibes you can spare to give me to have my baby kitten come back home to me!

HOLI FESTIVAL !

so i went to utah for 3 days to attend the holi festival on saturday. it was FANTASTIC. you guys. i have to go next year too. it was great. i had a nice time in utah. nicole & i just hung out and were lazy most of the time. i hung out with sam and had really intense talks which was well needed. tough times i tell ya...

here are some photos from my Holi festival experience:

jackie & i - walking to the festival.

jackie blessing me

me blessing jackie

nicole calls this "the celebrity look" hahaha so funny!
i didnt even know she was taking a photo which makes it even funnier.

nicole & i - blessed!

haeree ... this photo is so intense to me. its beautiful!

me , covered head to toe in colors

nicole & i = pre-celebration (oops)

jackie kissing a llama ... i did this too but my hair got in the way of the photo

love this photo of nicole!



we were dancing maniacs around the burning of Holika!! loved it

nicole & i - vivid

love

AMAZING. outstanding. breathtaking.

haha gosh look at me.. i think this photo is so funny!

so much fun

spread the good around

the gang!

this is the best photographo of me that has ever been taken. EVER.

i adore this.. me & nicole with the flower between her feet

lonely together

facebook: i deactivated mine today .

guess that makes me a loser. and a loner. - even more so i suppose.

hopefully some people will come and say hi on my blog more often. email me casstaway@gmail.com more often. text me more. call me more. write me letters more. HANG out more. telegrams. singing messages. who knows. get clever.

today was a sad day. i lost my amber ring.
i never take my rings off
and i took my bosses daughters to dance class. so i was in a new place
i was doing homework. i can't remember if i had it on then.
i went to the bathroom, washed my hands left. noticed the ring was gone
went back in the bathroom, actually went thru the garbage hoping it came off when i dried my hands. no luck
looked in the toilet. its one of those public ones you know... power kind. so if it did fall in there it got swept away for sure.

if it had been in there tho
know that i would have stuck my hand in there to get it, no questions asked.
thats how serious this is.

tomorrow i will look at my house. just to make sure its not around.
i have a feeling it gone.
i cried already.

tomorrow i will go to the shop i got it at and tell him my story
hopefully i can get a new one. he was great to me last time i came to him
with my first amber ring that broke. (sigh)


that is the only photo i have of it. see on my pointer finger? ... beauty. i miss it so bad. i feel naked and weird with out it. gosh i'm gonna cry again




this is my song of the week. it was happy earlier.
now its sad and makes me upset
that's his fault



pretty sure i'm done forever with him.
is something wrong with me?


disco

i wish

i was magic

(real magic tho, not tricks)

day dreaming...

day dreaming. trying to get to utah. does anyone have some free airline buddy passes? or know anyone who works for the airline? i need to get there badly... oh dear.
i got tons of new art supplies from Dr.Deb. very happy she gave it all to me. she also gave me an antique drafting table. i'm going to re-finish it next week. my little project. excited about it. i turned my brothers room into my art studio. sorta. more like my art storage. i have so many supplies its crazy.

my mom brought me a bagel in bed today. gotta love breakfast in bed. with my cat. i'm going to go get a twix from the store. where did all my bloggers go?

outlander

so i am on page 541. there are 850 pages total. i LOVE this book. it makes me wish that it was my life. back in the day. with some brave, handsome, cool scottish lad who loved me. but nope. i'm just in california. with no one who loves me.

i wish men would read this book. and learn a few things. i wish this book would be made into a movie. directed by james cameron. because then it would be really long. but i wish i would be cast as the role of claire. i am too young. but still.

today i am going over to jackies. jackies boyfriend is in canada for a week, so we are having a girls week. it should be good fun. oooh yes. tayler is coming jan 20th and stayin with me until jan 29th. i am sooo excited. we are going to road trip down to san fransisco for a couple days. then back to my house (homebase) and then drive up to humboldt and check it out up there since thats where we want to move eventually. it will be rad. i can not wait to see the redwoods again. YES!

last night i went to see avatar in 3d (for the 2nd time) with gabe sady, megan, lisa, & garrett. the 2nd time around i noticed some cheesy parts and some connections. but over all i still really liked it. and it STILL made me wish i was Na'vi and hate mankind. haha dang.. these are two photos i took at beehive. i love the first one. i just think its random and weird. and the 2nd one.. of course i love it. its black peach tea mixed with black vanilla bean tea. no sugar, cream or honey added.. perfect as is. i crave it. i also crave white peach oolong tea from chinatown in sanfransisco. ahhh im goin NUTz.

a kisket a casket

i was taking my measurements today for modeling and i looked down and saw my tape measure and thought it looked so cute and neat. so i snapped a little photo of it.