lonely together

facebook: i deactivated mine today .

guess that makes me a loser. and a loner. - even more so i suppose.

hopefully some people will come and say hi on my blog more often. email me casstaway@gmail.com more often. text me more. call me more. write me letters more. HANG out more. telegrams. singing messages. who knows. get clever.

today was a sad day. i lost my amber ring.
i never take my rings off
and i took my bosses daughters to dance class. so i was in a new place
i was doing homework. i can't remember if i had it on then.
i went to the bathroom, washed my hands left. noticed the ring was gone
went back in the bathroom, actually went thru the garbage hoping it came off when i dried my hands. no luck
looked in the toilet. its one of those public ones you know... power kind. so if it did fall in there it got swept away for sure.

if it had been in there tho
know that i would have stuck my hand in there to get it, no questions asked.
thats how serious this is.

tomorrow i will look at my house. just to make sure its not around.
i have a feeling it gone.
i cried already.

tomorrow i will go to the shop i got it at and tell him my story
hopefully i can get a new one. he was great to me last time i came to him
with my first amber ring that broke. (sigh)


that is the only photo i have of it. see on my pointer finger? ... beauty. i miss it so bad. i feel naked and weird with out it. gosh i'm gonna cry again




this is my song of the week. it was happy earlier.
now its sad and makes me upset
that's his fault



pretty sure i'm done forever with him.
is something wrong with me?


disco

why do you like me?

why do people like me? what is it about me that people like? cause i have no idea.

i don't think i'm that cool.. i've always kinda thought i was a loser who made bad jokes, made faces in pictures and laughed at inappropriate things. i'm also kind of rude and i spend way too much time on the computer. (in my defense, i live in the country & i hate driving all around & spending money. plus i am taking online courses.. so back off)

but i really am curious. WHY do you like ME? i want reasons.. i need to compile them and put them in a notebook to remind myself that at one point people actually liked me.. just in case everyone stops liking me for some reason. (see above: 'rude' & 'laughs at inappropriate things')

in the mean time.. while you are thinking of reasons , here are some "behind the scenes" photos of the photoshoot i did with Ryan Muirhead .. this was after the shoot was over and we wanted to take some goofy photos before packing up.

the models : nicole bullard, myself, lianna hartley & alissa sosa

here i am making a face at a photoshoot
... i have no idea what i was doing :

"pouting" i think i am the only one who did it right.. haha :

laughing ! :

no idea whats going on here :

we were tickling each other.. liannas idea.. hahaha :

i can not remember what was going on here.. but it is GREAT :