cassie & miranda show

not really. we made a video last night (my sister and i) for my friend jeff.
and we didnt have anything great to say. we were pretty bored. and ... well here it is




we laugh at our own jokes.
we might make another one sometime this week.
its pretty fun

why do you like me?

why do people like me? what is it about me that people like? cause i have no idea.

i don't think i'm that cool.. i've always kinda thought i was a loser who made bad jokes, made faces in pictures and laughed at inappropriate things. i'm also kind of rude and i spend way too much time on the computer. (in my defense, i live in the country & i hate driving all around & spending money. plus i am taking online courses.. so back off)

but i really am curious. WHY do you like ME? i want reasons.. i need to compile them and put them in a notebook to remind myself that at one point people actually liked me.. just in case everyone stops liking me for some reason. (see above: 'rude' & 'laughs at inappropriate things')

in the mean time.. while you are thinking of reasons , here are some "behind the scenes" photos of the photoshoot i did with Ryan Muirhead .. this was after the shoot was over and we wanted to take some goofy photos before packing up.

the models : nicole bullard, myself, lianna hartley & alissa sosa

here i am making a face at a photoshoot
... i have no idea what i was doing :

"pouting" i think i am the only one who did it right.. haha :

laughing ! :

no idea whats going on here :

we were tickling each other.. liannas idea.. hahaha :

i can not remember what was going on here.. but it is GREAT :

5 photoshoots.. wow

so here i am . . . in utah. day 4. i've shot with evelyn, jake, john, ryan & jozef. tomorrow i am shooting with mikenna and that will be awesome. here are some pictures from my shoot with john - i haven't recieved photos from the other shoots yet.. its gonna be awesome when i do .. im really excited. anyway.. tell me what you think.. (anyone can comment on my blog, i have it open to all viewers. hey)

sneak attack photos

me taking photos from behind the rock..

then i noticed i had been discovered by my boss lisa..
haha thanks lisa.. youre the best.

2/30 - self portrait black&white

well there i am.. i shot this with a 24mm manual lens. pretty difficult but i got it down. photo #2 of my 30 days! hope you enjoy it.. since i never post up photos of myself.. i'm mysterious. i never do black and white either, but i felt this photo just looked more.. glamorous and classy. here is the other photo i took.. everyone seems to like this one better.. i personally like the top one most because its actually sharp and what i was going for.. but gotta go with what the audience likes more i suppose in this business. haha weird how my 2nd choice is always peoples 1st choice. hm.

i am so mad i got rid of this shirt + p.s. i need clothing help

because i really liked it. and i want to wear it the days. because i have nothing new in my wardrobe at all. i am an old boring worn out mess. i need to give my wardrobe an update. maybe next week. because tomorrow i am buying my camera (d300s) and a lens (50mmf/1.4) and a filter.. and a memory card.. so i'll be sorta down on the count for a second there. but next week i'll try to purchase some tank tops & a pair of pants and SOME SHOES i need some shoes. hey all you fashion lovers that i am blog following these days want to point me in the direction of some sweet sites that i can purchase some new threads and digs for not so much? but first know this: i don't wear the color red, i don't ever really wear tshirts, i don't "match", & i don't wear earrings even tho i have my ears double pierced. i also don't wear heels even tho i am only 5'2. because i go to college and i work therefore heels just don't mix at all. here is my style in various photos, so you can get the idea: i like vests. and arm bands. if you look closely in every photo of me i have a brown arm band on my left arm. its been there for 4 years, its hemp string. i have seen some people copy me with that & they give up because they knew they are lame for trying to be like me.. suckers. it's not a fashion statement really, it represents my big brother who is in the army. i put it on when he left. it'll probably stay on for the rest of my life. sometimes i put the big gold arm band over it tho. that thing ROCKS.

i wear 4 rings at all times - i dont need any new rings because these never come off.. but i like silver & gold. and i loooove gem stones.

i told you i dont match. thats me on the left. i don't really layer anymore. but i'm pretty relaxed when it comes to getting dressed as you can tell.

i don't have much rack, so i can wear whatever i want. i look so fake baked here but i'm not ,do armpits even tan? geeze. i like dark colors, i prefer wearing black. but i do LOVE color. just bursts of it.

i like bracelets. mostly cloth/string/maryroot. but i do wear metal. that one bracelet is a giraffe.

i also like gold, i just think gold makes you look cleaner with certain outfits. and more warm.

i look a little bit retard here in this photo but i mostly all of the time wear moccassins. i have those boots and my other two slip on mocs. that is my dilemma currently because mocs in wet weather = no good. so i'm on the prowl for some sort of shoes. i'm picky tho. i want some equestrian boots. soo sick. gosh i really don't have many photos of myself full body wearing what i wear. i guess i need to start. because i want to remember one day what i dressed like. i wear loose fitting clothing except my pants, only some. i'll publish more of what i wear so that everyone can see it, make fun of it, or dig it and compliment. either way i'm gonna be more interesting here in the blogosphere. now that i will have a camera so i'll post up good photos. and that i will be painting more so people can buy my work. i do custom.. bon nuit ~

silver lake 2

CALIFORNIA

here i am. back at home. my cat is so precious and cuddled with me this morning i love her so much. its beautiful outside my window - still as green as can be. there is a vine creeping up my gate and into my flower boxes. there is a pretty 'welcome home' vase with flowers from my moms garden on my table with a big white yummy sweet smelling peony in it. my room is untouched - except for my closet which i had to re-organize because my sister had at it while i was away & apparently she doesn't know how to properly put away clothes in the right fashion... my suitcase is unpacked but will soon be re-packed for my trip to virginia on wednesday. (much smaller suitcase tho) i have a photoshoot today at 11:30, back to work back to the life.

my utah trip was so nice. i didn't do a lot of what i had planned - but that always happens. the main thing is is that i had fun with what i did do.

i had fun with joanna too - my bunkbuddy. her bed is the most comfortable thing probably ever. i didn't want to move for days when i was on her bed. we somehow didn't get any photos together. i don't know how that happens. oh well. next time. i helped joanna & allison move into their new apartment.. its IDENTICAL to my old one. just with light blue walls & a couple different things like stove & sink. it made me miss my old place so much. i really want to move back to utah. i'm just not done there yet! i think maybe i'll transfer to the U for my medical stuff cause they have a really good program. but first i gotta finish up here in california! so i won't move back for a while. maybe summer or fall 2010.


i need more money. i want to buy a really nice camera. & i want to start saving up big time for a serious move. it'll be hard.. but i need to do it.
anyway. hi blog world.

apply to life

pain is inevitable, suffering is optional

this, has just become my brand new motto for life. and just those six words completely slapped me in the face and i got over it. i'm not suffering. at all. in anyway. because my life is rad and i'm successful. people love me and i have pretty much all doors open - there is literally nothing that is unreachable for me. i make friends everywhere which lead me to more doors. connections and networks. people TRUST me. i give no one any reason not to. i'm not a bad person. in anyway. i've always been a quick-to-recover sort of girl. with everything. nothing phases me. i don't really hold grudges. but i do remember really messed up things people have done to me. i am the HARMONY that holds things together. i am only here for good. treat me bad - karma comes around. i lift others up when they are down, my goal is to make people happy - never anything else. my intentions are true and solid. i don't like others who dislike others just because someone else does. i'm just tryin to get by with out any rocks hitting my head. so ... don't throw rocks at me. just you know, if you don't have something nice to say don't say anything at all. be nice to everyone. you never know...

about ME!

about me. does anyone know much about me here? besides the obvious stuff i post about. i don't really give any details or anything. i guess maybe i can talk about myself and tell you guys who i am and what i do. even tho a lot of you already know who i am - i'm cassie. lets start somewhere..

well. hi all - friends and strangers. lurkers and creepers. family - (hi mom!). lokes & jokes. welcome to my blogosphere. most people don't know much about me. i tend to keep it to myself besides what i spill out onto my blog from time to time. i can start with the basics and then get into the complicated parts then stumble awkwardly into some random tidbits. it'll be a fun adventure. i promise.

*um. first. i am 20. only 20. pretty young, when i feel so old. i am 5'2. 98 lbs.

*i am a full time student with a major in Bio-Science.

*i am a photographers assistant & i love my job. i work for a local photographer. not only do i do things behind the camera but i also do quite a bit in front of the camera -

*i model. i come across tall in photos i suppose.

*i live in one of the most beautiful places on earth: California. i live in the northern part of california & i'm right between South Lake Tahoe & Sacramento actually i live where gold was discovered.

* i live at home with my parents again.. i don't mind it. i love my family and hey .. having dinner ready on the table every night.. not so bad either.

* i lived in utah in 2008. Salt Lake City. it was an experience, i had a lot of fun.

* i have a seriously bad case of wanderlust. as much as i am a homebody i am constantly itching to move around and see things and travel to places.

*i love to drive. people love me to drive. i am a great driver. this i imagine ties into my wanderlust.

* i have a '98 subaru outback that i bought myself. its my baby and i love it. however i do want a brand new subaru outback.. but shh do not tell my car or it will probably die on me. again.

* i'm quite simplistic. i don't need much to be happy. i don't need the latest trends or the newest things to be fine with life. as long as what i have works and doesn't fall apart i'm good.

* i am an organizational clean freak. with MY things. i don't care if your stuff is a mess.

* i am very fond of miniature things. tiny sea shells, little buttons, beans, little boxes.

*i can have a bad attitude and i am very quick with comebacks.

* i am afraid of nothing. literally. nothing scares me. some things can surprise me or make me uncomfortable. but i'm never scared.

* said things that make me uncomfortable : water towers, long nails on boys & food that might be spicy.

* my favorite color on this day, is turquoise, but really i love all colors and can't pick a true favorite.

* i like to wear black. it just looks good.

* my eyes are green.

* i get compliments on my teeth A LOT.??

* i have 2 brothers and one sister. zac the oldest, me the second, miranda who is 15 and brogan who is 12.

* i am an "aroma therapy girl" as my mom calls me. it means i am all about the smells. i feel that the right smell can ease some ones life. candles and insense are essential. even goods being baked in the kitchen are necessary... invest in my belief of smells being a cure. spend some time on it.

* i love all foods. except the following: celery, soda, onions & sea urchin. everything else .. bring it on at me. im ready

* i am not good at math. i want to be. so i'll tell myself i am. {but i'm not}

* i am a cold blooded creature.. i get cold really easy & snow is not my element. i like to look at snow but being in it... i can handle snow i suppose. i just need the right gear. lots of it.

* i get along really well with just about anyone. when asked do i get along better with girls or boys.. i can't answer i just get along. simple as that.

* oh yeah, i don't put on a mask to please others. your gettin what you're seein. if you don't like it YOU can leave.. no one is keeping you here.

* i don't like people who complain... yet i am probably the biggest complainer, sometimes.

* i love meeting new people. i love friends. i love people (most of the time) and i love to read and watch other peoples lives. they fascinate me. i'm not a creep.

* i'm a joker. i'm sarcastic. i like to make people laugh. i just like to be happy.

* i like photographs & taking them. i own three old cameras. an olympus from the 80s, a dacoramatic .. super weird. & one that i can't remember the name of because my grandpa just gave it to me.

olsen twins.

i've been friends with the olsen twins since i was little. i think maybe 7. i love their style these days, its so easy. i don't pick favorites with anything. and i wont start. but i will say that ashley is more like me. i like her. i wish we could hang out. marykate probably has some pretty good things to say too. maybe we'll hang later.

i bet it would be cool having a twin . sometimes.

i need new sunglasses. and some heels. some good ones.

i also want my hair to be more blonde and not so ridiculous as it has been being lately. its difficult. especially when i NEVER style it. i just let it air dry and then thats that. maybe i should take some time and effort to make it nice. i'll try it tomorrow morning.

i also have no idea why my skin is not so hot all of a sudden. my skin is never annoying. of course. this is typical. right before my vacation & my photoshoot. i shouldn't be surprised. haha cassie. i think its the stress.


i am writing a letter to the New York Times. i'm writing about media bias. it should be good.


i'm dipping my toes into
the pool

just to see
if
maybe its warm yet

but
i don't think
i'll ever be ready
to

go swimming again.

in the words of

my soul sister nell, in the words of adam duritz ~
"if you've never stared off in the distance, then your life is a shame"


yan-yan's - SUCH a weird Japanese treat. you dip these in a vanilla frosting. but like, read what's on the sticks. so funny.

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my new lamp shade:

this is the lamp shade that i made. bought the lampshade new. then ... customized. with cords, lace bits and fringe. with my handy dandy... hot-glue-gun. the hot-glue-gun is my FAVORITE toy in the world. officially. i was looking all over my room and then all over the house for more things to use the hot-glue-gun on. i found nothing.

plus, randomly and surprisingly my mom just happened to have drawers full of different cords, lace, fringe etc so i didn't have to go pick anything out at a store. i just got to dig through what we already had. how random. my family is so conveniently random. that's an oxymoron if i ever heard

it, right?

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in other news, i got my new skin for my cellular phone... click to enlarge.

grilled cheese

its all i want. over
and over again.

is that too much to ask?

beauty in all forms

books, music, flowers, and perfume are typical delights. promote peace & harmony, & will invariably opt to bypass hostile confrontations whenever some equally effective method can be employed. most ready to tolerate the beloveds failings. honesty, fairness, and justice. fast travelers; the sharks. trying to be all things to all people, there is a general impression : indecisive. affectionate, warmhearted, sentimental, naturally optimistic - everything to please. talent for making people feel at ease. will find ways to succeed one way or another. using wit & charm. tennis, hiking, horseback riding, skating, & aerobics. the most desirable. need to be liked. mellowness & sense of relaxation in the air. won't hesitate to walk away; with no further explanation or thought of returning. solve the matter then and there. elegance, charm & good taste, naturally kind, very gentle, & lovers of beauty, harmony & pleasures that these bring.