here i am 2017

a list


- snowshoes w/ poles
- i need a tan
- homemade brownie
- warm blankets
- someone who likes me
- someone who i like back
- a trip to France
- (learn french first)
- can't decide if i like my hair dark or blonde
- i want some Korean food
- i should read more
- trip to California
- specifically LA
- specifically Home
- give me your clothes you don't want anymore
- i miss Anouk
- my dad bought me a microwave & i cried
- i miss my parents
- i should use my cameras more



- google "space age" and look under images, know that so many of those photos make me happy

Bought a new car

Things I have to give up because I bought a new car: 

Getting my hair done

Eating out

Clothing

Pretty much doing anything.

But dang. Ain't she pretty?  

tired.

i'm so tired.

tired of not having things work out.
tired of others not liking the way i am.
tired of not helping myself
tired of making dumb choices
tired of not planning ahead
tired of not having enough money
tired of feeling less than
tired of being told i'm wrong
tired of being looked down on
tired of mean people
tired of selfish people
tired of dreaming of a life that's not mine
tired tired tired

why can't i just be happy

A list

Pick more flowers. 

Ran around a bit more.

Go ahead & have that cookie.

Be kind more often.

Cherish the relationships you have.

Stop being down on yourself.

You look great.

Make the most amazing meal.

Try something new.

Go on more hikes.

Laugh really hard once a day.

Wear a fancy outfit.

Ride a bike.

Lay outside.

Down forget sunscreen.

Compliment your friends.

Leave love notes to everyone.

Wear more color.

Give someone you like a back rub.

Hug more often.

Look into horse back rides.

Plan a trip to the salt flats with your girls to light off fireworks & have a fun photoshoot.

ARRANGE MORE PHOTOSHOOTS! Have fun.

Day off

List of things to do on my day off: 

-Crack walnuts with a hammer outside

-Take a nap

-Take a bath

-Get sushi later