Wednesday, September 30, 2009

cathartes aura "golden purifier" - vulture

in the earliest of times, the sun lived very close to the earth - so close in fact that life upon the earth was becoming unbearable. the animal world got together and decided to do something about it. they wanted to move the sun further away. the fox was the first to volunteer, and he grabbed the sun in his mouth and began to run to the heavens. after a short while, the sun became too hot, burning the fox's mouth, and he stopped. to this day, the inside of the fox's mouth is black.
then the opossum volunteered. he wrapped his tail around the sun and began running toward the heavens. before long thought, the sun became too hot, burning his tail and he had to stop. . to this day the opossum has no hair upon its tail.
it was then that vulture stepped forward. vulture was the most beautiful and powerful of birds. upon its head was a beautiful mantle of rich feathering that all other birds envied. knowing that the earth would burn up unless someone moved the sun, the vulture placed its head against it and began to fly to the heavens. with powerful strokes of its wings, it pushed and pushed the sun further and further up into the heavens. thought it could feel its crown feathers burning, the vulture continued until the sun was set at a safe distance in the sky away from the earth. unfortunately, vulture lost its magnificent head of feathers for eternity.

my newest totem is the vulture. my totems i already have are bees, moths and hawks. the vulture makes the perfect addition to my totem family. very happy about this. i will probably write more about this topic later. i need canvas to start more paintings. my birthday is in 4 days.

Monday, September 28, 2009

grateful dead

today i spent a bit downloading some grateful albums. i had none on my ipod and that is not okay. i have a couple but i need them all to be satisfied. sunshine day dream -

i have a big ol package to send to Pat, Katie & Talan. its full of baby clothes & a baby carrier backpack thing. & some other goodies too.. Talan is so cute, it'll be cool to see him get older and create his personality. i hope they like the stuff i am sending.

i also REALLY need to finish the frame on Olivia's painting.. so i can send it to her. I've been so busy that i haven't had time to touch my oil paints. it sucks. I can't wait until winter cause that will be prime painting time i hope. & i need to do something to my owl.. he's too boring. I was thinking of making him into 3D art somehow.
When i was at Silver Lake i collected a bunch of moss on the ground to use in a project. I just had a feeling i would need moss, so i have a bunch saved in a big ziplock. We'll see what i do with it.

i got the main part of my costume today.. i am keeping my halloween costume a secret until i can't keep it secret anymore. i'm really excited about what i'm going to be tho. i think i can make it look really good.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

silver lake 2

Thursday, September 24, 2009


a new photo of me.. taken by one of my best friends lilian henrie shes a great photographer

Monday, September 21, 2009


yesterday my sister, my mom, my brother & i tyedyed --

the after math:

the results: (some)

i did some pants, two tank tops & a headband. i did other things too.

at david girard winery on saturday i saw this girl and she had on dusty lime green maryjane shoes. they looked cotton & comfy with rubber soles. i decided i must search for some that are similar because i loved them so much.

i'm hungry . i want some Zpie or BJs Brewery. who wants to come with?

Thursday, September 17, 2009


so the other day i saw so many vultures on the side of the road so i had to pull over. i was standing among over 20 of them and it was just fascinating. so i went back again today and they were all still there eating and picking at the same dead buck. but today the bucks head and part of his torso were gone. the vultures fly away or sit on posts when i get out of the car. but today one of the vultures was posing for me with his wings out, he did for 2 minutes, and i managed to get a decent picture of it. it was really cool! i think my next painting will be vultures "dining". i wonder if anyone will want that painting. if they don't that's fine because at least i'll know how amazing it really is and the meaning it has to me. just being around that many and seeing that many. so awesome.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

my first two oil paintings .

this is Guillermo .. i made it for sam.

this one is for Olivia !

Thursday, September 10, 2009


i'll stay over here. if that's how you're gonna be.

i've been going on runs lately. to the blackberry bushes and back. i pulled my thigh/butt muscle yesterday, but i went on the activator and it doesn't hurt at all today. i go around 7 because it's cooler and more quiet. i feel like i'm alone sometimes. i smell the sprinklers and the apple trees. i see the geese flying in. i pick the blackberries at the finish line & eat some for a while. then i run back. (because they aren't mine, i'm sort of "stealing")

i've been looking for ways to escape unnoticed lately. trying to devise a plan to run away. but anouk keeps me from bolting. i think she'd survive with out me, i'm sure we'd both suffer from heart ache and heart break. if i could bring her with me i would, but she'd be too much work.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

some of yosemite

working with light

valley floor drivin with the sunroof open

there was a bug on me.. haha

yosemite .. the view you come here to see.

our "waterhole" as lindsey called it.

me scoping out the surroundings for a photograph

lindsey kept taking photos of me

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

birthday .. one month to go

i turn 21 october 4th. all i really want is some $ for my camera and my escape fund.
but, aside from that. here are some things i am really really interested in having for my own: