rain weather

so happy its been raining. 

yesterday i wasn't happy about it - only because i wasn't prepared for it at all. my clothes were soaking because i didn't have the right jacket on, i was wearing my leather jacket so i was mad that it was getting wet. then i had the wrong shoes on and no extra socks. it was annoying... and then my wallet was open and i didn't know it so all my papers came out onto the wet driveway... and my umbrella i got in Nice, France 7 years ago broke. UGH! what a weird mess. 

but today was better. wore a big raincoat, my turtle rain boots, a new beanie by PolerStuff, & jumped in puddles with Lucy :

and by this time next week - i'll be in Oregon, overwhelmed with awesome things and an amazing experience. seeing new sights, breathing in new air and feeling like one lucky girl.

Ya.

I'm exhausted. I spent too much money over the weekend. & I'm trying to buy a new car. & pay off a festering mound of preposterous debt.

Ohhhh being 25 is not what I imagined it would be... I must have took a wrong turn somewhere. I think it was a wrong turn toward Utah. I'll stop blaming that place after I've achieved some sort of safe zone. 

I like my blonde hair. But I am really missing my dark. Choices choices choices.

       

pretty soon

pretty soon here, i'll be going to visit oregon for the first time. the Wallowas. i am excited to see what i can do there. how i can test my photography. all of that. very flattered to be apart of the 7 wonders of oregon.


i also want to start doing more cool eye makeup. eyes are sources of vast information. i might as well make mine do all the talking.



i can't wait to move to LA. i've got to figure out how to do this. 

storm warning

Watching massive lightening bolts spark across the sky, waiting for the thunder to rumble through the night. The rain cascades down in sheets. Overflowing the ground. The lightening is so bright I squint, the thunder so deep it rolls into the Earth. I wish I could get photos of this storm. It's completely dangerous & something I'd rather describe with words than share with images.

I can't sleep with this type of energy swirling madly above me. It seems like it's searching for something. Searching for someone to charge. Someone like me who needs charging, who needs a jolt. If I could absorb the energy of the storm, the intensity of it's being, I would be tremendous. I could learn many things from big storms. We all could. 

Be as spectacular as you can. Pay no mind to criticism. Be loud. Excite others. Ignite moods & emotions. Don't be afraid to be what you are. Might as well go for it. 

Don't be common. Be rare. 

Don't stop suddenly. - always fade, leave glimmers and traces. Leave them wanting more. Anxious for the next round. Fond & vivid memories. Share your energy.

I have very much needed this storm moment...