im just sayin .

______________________

all i want

is a guy with a beard who likes to travel 

and who loves me like nothing else

and a motorcycle 

and some cookies

to see roux one more time 

an anklet 

& to travel around the entire united states 

one day. 

i gotta start learning how to be positive

can someone teach me/? 

probably can't be taught. 

im just not happy lately. 

its hard. 

nothing is going right for me

so its hard to be "positive" or whatever... 

when its a giant mix of things that just suck. 

i need help. 

as in 

a pina colada 

a salmon meal

& a new pair of jeffery campbell heels 

and a hottub

heres to a change of attitude and 

hopefully better luck  - 

jack of all trades

song of the week ... i just adore this. 

im a jack of all trades

ive always known this about myself 

but hearing someone else say they know that about me 

was like, letting me know that the way i am is okay. 

i got myself a pocket moleskine . 

my therapist told me i should write more. 

for a few reasons. one being that i forget everything. 

so writing my thoughts down will help. 

and second, its my way of expression. of getting it "off my chest" . 

everyone has their own form of expression... art... verbal... writing... whatever. 

mine is personally writing. ive always had a way with words. 

and i do like photography too obviously, but i never knew i was good at it until it was my job for 2 years. 

but ive always known i was good with words. 

but damn it. here i go... rambling... 

im updating my ipod tonight. i got super sick of everything on mine so im freshening up a bit. i posted that nice little number up top that i am fully obsessed with. i just cant stop listening. i'l try to put up a song with each blog post. i dont know if anyone listens to the songs i post, but at least it'll make the blog a little more interesting right? 

i did indigo eye liner today... took a photo of it.

but i still wish i had my old nikon. maybe the next camera i get will be a nice canon or something. i think i want to try canon this time around. with a 50 1.4 .. of course. 

have a good night 

cinco de mayo in SF

tiffany, myself & brooke on our way to dolores park for cinco de mayo

i missed the memo to stick my tongue out ... i guess doing that is all the rage. 

head wear by my girl maddie @ chainrush on etsy

showing my hula skills at the park . my pal laura so finely captured me in motion.

i think its the first real photo of me doing hula well. 

oh just a typical shot i have to get each time i enter the city. 

bay bridge thru maui jim rose polarized glasses with sun flare 

*not supermoon - laura

i tried the tongue thing for the photo because tiffany is my most wild friend

so i tried to be wild like her. but she pulled a normal face. hahaha

laura, me and tiffany. i had my eyes closed so i wouldnt squint 

basically had a fun time. just chilled out . 

rolled into the bay around like 2 it seems. tried to vote for the president of france (sarkozy, heard that the other fool won, there goes that... not moving there any time soon. that kills my plans) but downtown was packed and brooke was having an anxiety attack because she hates driving in the city. i SWEAR i am the only person out of each and every one of my friends that can actually drive in cities.. wait, im the only one of my friends who SHOULD drive in cities. they should never do it again. they all get anxiety, develop a case of the bad mood attitude, and get pissed off and irritated and can't be as aggressive as me. its so funny... for me. the i get in trouble for laughing. 

anyway , grabbed a cab from tiffany's domain off Cole & Haight, headed toward the park, met up with laura at dolores. sat and chit chatted with our lawn neighbors. hula hooped, laughed, squinted from the sun all day long and generally had a nice time. can't wait to head back there again for a longer weekend. happy cinco de drinko everyone... too bad i have no idea what the holiday actually stands for. whatever... 

and now for the song :