4th of july weekend

bobcat

this picture ... i am obsessed with it

i want to have a picture of myself just like it

with the bobcat and everything

all my own.

its finally snowing. too bad its only for one day/night

then back to blank ugly whatever.

here is a small playlist for you all

enjoy

the fire is so delightful

roux & tank by the fire

photo by yours truly.

me & my boy tom hangin out

anouk up in the closet

i love it when he draws hearts with my name in them.

walked across this old railroad bridge

anouk in the vegetable garden.

anouk sleeping on my lap like a baby

california poppy

my chocolates are all gone

the easter bunny brought me Godiva gem chocolate truffles.. and they are all gone now. i hate it when i eat my goodies too fast..

Anyway, i've posted all of my things up on my etsy for purchase , please oh please pass the link on will you? i need to get rid of everything! if you don't like the price... let me know. help a girl out!
ETSY
i'm re-doing my life.. starting fresh. i'm getting rid of everything really. except my books. and sentimental things. you know.

i'm sick and its annoying. because i work today and i'm going to the gym. and i just don't want to be sick... its just wasting my time.

last night i was cleaning out my phone - like deleting pictures i don't need and videos and people etc etc. and i came across some really good photos so i sent them to myself and to any people who were related to any of the photos for one last viewing before they were gone forever. here are a couple i found that i really enjoyed:

i took this a while ago.. anouk in the background all fluffy. so funny.


yosemite last year with lindsay ... we had such a fun little trip.

i hate it when i come across photos of my self where i look good . because i don't look as good anymore. ugh. i was tan-ish here.. dang.

haha this is so funny/ thats anouk on the post. my mom said it reminded her of snoopy as a vulture hahahaha ...

5 photoshoots.. wow

so here i am . . . in utah. day 4. i've shot with evelyn, jake, john, ryan & jozef. tomorrow i am shooting with mikenna and that will be awesome. here are some pictures from my shoot with john - i haven't recieved photos from the other shoots yet.. its gonna be awesome when i do .. im really excited. anyway.. tell me what you think.. (anyone can comment on my blog, i have it open to all viewers. hey)

2010?

feels like just yesterday it was 2009...



me, jenna, mikenna, ashlyn & mackenzie .. mikenna had a little dinner party.


here is one of my photos from my 3rd photoshoot with john paul... more to come


i'll post a real blog post sometime later. i've been slacking on blogging lately. sorry..

newest modeling photo- FRUIT SERIES !

this is Me.. Strawberry! Clementines- Paris Gibson | Korean Melon - Sue Tran Tamarillo - Lilian Henrie | Golden Kiwi - Erynn Schmidt

all of these were done by the fantastic Mikenna

we did these back in august. love them. im so pleased. i really love mine. i love that i look like the only pleased one.. haha . yum. & no.. we didn't eat the fruit afterward. Instead we ate chinese food.

thankful for .. walkin closets

(the double as a hideout) i am thankful for my cat.. anouk seldean. i love her more than anything. i am thankful for my totally radical family. because they are hilarious and keep not only my family.. but EVERYONE on their toes. i am thankful for my car.. my trusty subaru legacy outback. for sweet warm candles & chocolate. for my friends near and far - old & young. for lots and lots of things.but today .. i am thankful for my leather boots and leather jacket because it is going to rain.

i am going down to sacramento today to see brooke.. whom i have not seen in a long long time. jackie is coming with me because she is home for a couple days too. i haven't seen either of them for quite some time. i am excited. we are going to get tea.

i took some photos of my thanksgiving last night. well, of the dessert. hahahaha ... & we didn't eat the cat food.. i got those for my 3 cats.. don't judge me.. i love my cats.

that apple pie was cracking me up because it was so tall. and that was their smallest one! they come in sizes.. we got the apple and the pumpkin pies from the Kids INC farm.. sooo yummy. im going to have pumpkin pie for breakfast. i am disgusting when it comes to eating food. i never eat it at the right time. but i dont even care.
i tried to make sams moms recipe of breadsticks and i thought i was doing great but they didnt even work! they didnt rise at all. and i put yeast in. yeast hates me. i am not a very good baker. but i can cook. one day i'll learn to make breadsticks the right way.

a kisket a casket

i was taking my measurements today for modeling and i looked down and saw my tape measure and thought it looked so cute and neat. so i snapped a little photo of it.

5/30 - halloween ghost

this ghost was made for me by Tom. Tom is the little boy i've been watching since he was 8 months old.. he is 4 now, he turns 5 in January. he has a twin sister Jill.. so i get double the fun & double the cute.

this is the ghost Tom made for me .. i think its got to be the best ghost i've ever seen in my life. I especially like the partial piece of cotton glued to the torso and the different size eyes. its brilliant. its hanging on my wall forever. its so good that i made it the photo of the day for day 5.

3/30 - fall leaves

i picked these leaves today .. and put them in order. i saw this in a national geographic magazine article.. maybe last year. so i re-created it with leaves from my backyard. the top photo is my 3rd photo of the 30 days .. one photo a day! dig it?

2/30 - self portrait black&white

well there i am.. i shot this with a 24mm manual lens. pretty difficult but i got it down. photo #2 of my 30 days! hope you enjoy it.. since i never post up photos of myself.. i'm mysterious. i never do black and white either, but i felt this photo just looked more.. glamorous and classy. here is the other photo i took.. everyone seems to like this one better.. i personally like the top one most because its actually sharp and what i was going for.. but gotta go with what the audience likes more i suppose in this business. haha weird how my 2nd choice is always peoples 1st choice. hm.

storm has arrived

its windy outside and really rainy. i kinda like it but my feet got wet. my boots aren't good for the rain anymore. this is a dilemma. it means i really actually for real need new shoes/boots. oh dear. i'm going to go make some tea and write my essay. oh boy.

pictures of myself.. taken by myself.. this is hard

so i finally tried to take some photos of myself. but since all i have is my 50mm its kind of hard. i didn't really want to ask anyone to take the photo for me because well.. i sorta wanted my camera in the photo.. its such a nice detail to what i am wearing.

some of yosemite

working with light

valley floor drivin with the sunroof open

there was a bug on me.. haha

yosemite .. the view you come here to see.

our "waterhole" as lindsey called it.

me scoping out the surroundings for a photograph

lindsey kept taking photos of me