it feels good. but also makes my heart torn a bit. i miss utah so much and i wish it was closer to california. i miss my lilian a bunch. i came home and unpacked everything so that when i woke up i wouldnt have to deal with it all. my anouk sel dean cuddled with me this morning. she woke me up and rubbed her head on mine and then snuggled up right next to me. i missed her so much. shes really big! after being around deuce for a week and 3 days i realized how grown up anouk has gotten! shes sooo soft.. still the softest cat i ever felt.