this music video is soooooooooo sick.

everything about it is captivating. 

i dont listen to rhianna or drake ever, but i heard this song on the radio once and i quite liked it. 

and drake is a babe in this video. i'll be honest here. 

i just love the shots of the animals and the slow motion movements of drake with the moody lighting. i totally wouldn't mind having photos of myself in this style. hint hint. i wonder if i can set something like this up.... 

looking for inspiration

i wonder how people find their "muse". or just their inspiration. how do you even inspire thoughts from every day things? i mean i know how you do, but how do you transform things differently to make them into something almost surreal? with out it being over the top or just plain ridiculous? think about it. people are creative. but i wonder where they really get it from. do their minds really just spit out clever ideas on a whim ? or do they find it someplace else? they'd never tell. no one tells their sources. mitch has a quote he likes and its "the secret to being successful is knowing how to hide your sources" . which is true. whether it be an actual source you are deriving your outcomes from or whether its your own mind - with infinite sources and combinations and ideas that are molded together inside the hidden places in your brain. its pretty wondrous to think about. i have been doing a lot of thinking today - not even sure if its considered creative.

just trying to think of clever, catching, captivating & clear ways to present an item to the world. its pretty difficult. since it seems as though the whole world has used up every idea you think about. think about that. yeah. but i know there are things that haven't been thought about. and i'm the one trying to think about them. & find them really..

some people are so clever. i wonder if i'm clever?

here are some clever things i've found :

here is a song that is inspiring to the mind ~ this is good if you have great speakers & excellent bass. listen to everything LOUD. or else.. why are you listening at all??

sometimes it trips me out

being so in tune with things. its not just quantum physics.

i have intuition. i'm gaining more and more each day. its quite bizarre but i am enjoying it. take my word for things.. it seems to be in everyone's best interest. i love it but i hope it doesn't get too overwhelming. other wise i might have to visit an Indian doctor just like deb did. hmm.
im going kayaking on sly park with my sister in a bit here.
but in the mean time,
here are some things i like:

why do you like me?

why do people like me? what is it about me that people like? cause i have no idea.

i don't think i'm that cool.. i've always kinda thought i was a loser who made bad jokes, made faces in pictures and laughed at inappropriate things. i'm also kind of rude and i spend way too much time on the computer. (in my defense, i live in the country & i hate driving all around & spending money. plus i am taking online courses.. so back off)

but i really am curious. WHY do you like ME? i want reasons.. i need to compile them and put them in a notebook to remind myself that at one point people actually liked me.. just in case everyone stops liking me for some reason. (see above: 'rude' & 'laughs at inappropriate things')

in the mean time.. while you are thinking of reasons , here are some "behind the scenes" photos of the photoshoot i did with Ryan Muirhead .. this was after the shoot was over and we wanted to take some goofy photos before packing up.

the models : nicole bullard, myself, lianna hartley & alissa sosa

here i am making a face at a photoshoot
... i have no idea what i was doing :

"pouting" i think i am the only one who did it right.. haha :

laughing ! :

no idea whats going on here :

we were tickling each other.. liannas idea.. hahaha :

i can not remember what was going on here.. but it is GREAT :

grow slow

there are smells in this world
that make me stop to take in the deep breath
and then i think
about how there needs to be a jar
that can capture smells
so that we can open it up any time
and smell it.


i'm the same way with sounds
like
the sound of .. rocks
fumbling around
under a creek.
or water falling over rocks
or someone who can
whistle really
really well.
or a foreign person
talking in english.

bucket

some people just aren't very interesting to listen to. or very interesting in general. i'm glad i am. or at least i'd like to think so. nah, i know i am.

i stole my neighbors ice chest because i'm a snake. i'm giving it back when i'm done tho. i left a note. i already packed up most of my stuff into the car. because i'm that excited. i could just do it tomorrow but... why not do it now? kylee is watching my little angel anouk while i'm gone. anouk is going to miss me so much i know it. i got her fancy feast turkey feast in gravy for her to eat on thanksgiving. i love my cat alright.