ops!

ive been so bad at writing!
i keep getting asked when ill be updating  new post
and i keep saying "soon" and "soon" never rolls around...
so finally im just making myself do it.
i have had SO much going on.


i have so much music i want to share
but i cant find it all to post . its all in that "new" stage.
so i'll give you this to start:

had a weekend long ladies adventure with my girls

here we are at VEX in our vip booth. 

jackie, alyssa, jenelle, jessica, me, chelsea & sara. 

so much fun. so much fun in fact, that i cant remember it.

all i remember is i slept in the bathtub. 

and it was comfortable .

went swimming the following weekend with the cutest baby ..

Jeffy! him & i are best friends now. love him forever 

here we are. look at him. just look

hes so precious i adore him.

he sees me and goes "hi cassie!"

with a big ol grin on his face. 

sweetest thing

jason diving on command . 

such funny shots

awesome

audra & her boy jason. 

i am SO glad that they were game to do this for me!

i am so pleased with how perfect they look . 

i love my lifeproof case for my iphone.

baby jeffy. 

sweetest sight i ever saw. 

i made him dive over and over again 

maybe 17 times. 

and he was game. 

thanks for being a MFing athlete jason! 

you make me feel like a fat dump! hahahaha

then i went to brewfest. 

but i lost my ID so i was illegal the entire time

lucky for me, 

i know people who give me alcohol with out needing to see my ID 

because its obvious im 23 almost 24. right? 

RIGHT? 

i wish i looked my age and not 12. 

but see here? there i am drinking Trout Slayer

and Jackie , see her? shes drinking Jamaican Red.

then i went to tahoe for the 4th of july

and here is me and my hair

on west shore (thebestshore) 

it was an amazing 4th

i dont feel like posting photos from that day

because i took a ton. and it would be too hard to narrow it down

so this is the only one im posting

its great , at least

and then i went BACK to tahoe 

and did some amateur fire dancing

and its my new aspiration. 

i think i will take it up when i get back from mexico

i hope i have satisfied all my readers

whoever you are

i dont even know if i have "readers" 

it seems like i just write to thin air

follow me on instagram , i post more there

because its easy. :: casstaway :: 

i'll try to write more . 

i say that everytime 

but i really mean it. 

plans...

i have no clue what to even write about

its all a scramble . 

i did go to tahoe last weekend with 7 girlfriends and we "partied" all weekend for jackies birthday. it was pretty fun. we got a VIP booth at Vex in Harveys , courtesy of jessica. it was great. never been to a club before. dancing is fun. we got lots of photos but i am not gonna post them all here cause just , no. too much work. but this is one of me and jackie that i like a lot 

oh, two more of my photos were featured on TAHOE.com blog. you can check them out here 

pretty pleased. i like having my 'work' featured on things. considering i dont even have my own dslr anymore.. i think im doin alright. i cant wait to have a camera again tho. one day... i'll save up all that cheese and buy myself somethin nice. refurb nikon d3 with my classic 50mm 1.4. why not... i set my sights high ... i may be short but i can always reach ...

im planning on moving to Oahu for sure. i talked to my soul sister of many years (how many has it been? i cant remember) about where and which island to move to... she thinks Oahu would be my vibe. so im just gonna go for it one day. im not worried. i want to move to england after hawaii. dramatic change. but ive always wanted to take advantage of my duel citizenship. and i dont want to move to france til i can speak it better. 

you guys like how long its taken me to decide what i want to do with my life? whatever. i started off with something and then along the way changed my mind and then started a life somewhere else so i got tied up with that... so many paths in life. 

anyway

here are two photos that have nothing to do with anything ive talked about 

me at wrights lake. 

crazy clouds. i couldnt get a good photo to express how strange they were. 

tahoe!

pretty proud to say that two of my photos are featured on the Tahoe.com blog this week! i made a pretty cool contact with an editor and he really hooked me up! thanks Erik !

you can see the blog post here: TAHOE.COM

i'm doing better this week - this week did go by super fast. 

on monday i finally got to experience my dream of DODGEBALL! my friend Dan helped me make it come to life and so many awesome friends came to participate. it was so fun. im still sore...  we got a lot of photos , but these two are the only "posed" shots... thats the original dodgeball team down there , minus a few players (like me, since i was taking the photo) it was so fun and we all had such a good time that we plan on doing it again ... and after other people saw how awesome it turned out im sure they will be participating in it too. success! 

anyways .. its warming up fast. and i am itching to be free. i dont know how im gonna have a summer where i work full time... i'll probably miss out on a lot of fun happenings around town. bummer. oh well... hopefully they wont mind if i show up fashionably late and in scrubs... i hope this is my last summer in placerville as a resident ... i really hope i'll be in hawaii by this time next year. schooling and adventuring. i think i decided my majors ... i think everyone might already know... child studies... duh. it would only make sense. pretty excited to finally know what avenue i am going to take. now if only i could come up with a job i will love for afterward... ideas and input welcome on this subject... 

adios 

oh hey

i was so close to going to bed just now

but then i remembered i need to write more. 

for a few reasons. 

i sort of forgot what i was going to say.

but i remember one thing.

 everyone wants something else. everyone wishes they looked the way another person did. or had something someone else has. or wishes they could change something about themselves easier. i dont care if you lie and say "no i like everything about myself" or whatever bullshit spews from your mouth on this particular subject. because i'll know you're lying. its human nature. it just is. i swear it. i'll find some kind of specialist just to prove it. 

discipline. self acceptance. benevolence... and all those of things... we need those things, but damn its hard to get those. especially with all this social media and networking and constant overload of photos. im soooo guilty in participating in it. but hey, its 2012. whatevs. its hard for me not to sometimes hate the way i look after i see a girl with a really good looking body, or who is taking the time and effort to eat really well, or who -seems- comfortable in her own skin. it just makes me wonder what the hell im missing. 

personally, i have almost zero discipline. i eat in 5 minutes like its going to be taken away from me forever. i have a gym membership but i get lazy and think of a million reasons to ditch. i put off doing things i know i need to do because id rather sleep or something. i honestly i have no clue how to gain discipline. plus i know that i am the worst at being almost 100% unresponsive to threats, comments or 'encouragement' to do things to better myself. i'm super good at avoiding things. 

and self acceptance. ha wow. yeah that is not fully happening for me. i must be doing something waaaay wrong. maybe its the above statement i just made that contributes to this. i think the rust just came off the wheels in my mind on this particular subject. i can sort of feel them turning and figuring it out a little bit. hm. but still. hard to do. 

and benevolence. i dont really know how i can get over 'envying' girls with better things than me. i mean, i dont actually envy them at all, i just dont have a better word for it. envy and jealousy are not feelings i am familiar with really. however, i do get down on myself when i see a girl with a lucky set of attributes that i completely lack. so its not really envy... its just self pity and crap. total nonsense - i know. POOR ME. im soooo unworthy... 

but sometimes , everyonce in a while, something about myself satisfies me for a minute. and i realize for a brief flicker in my life that i am not half bad and that i could look like a wreck. more of a wreck than normal that is. like today i did some neat eye make up and i was completely stoked on the photo that i took of myself. i was like WHAT how did i manage that and how did i not know that my eye ball looked that good today.  here is a photo: 

it made me feel good about myself. its kind of like a really pathetic way of validating myself. because most of the time i feel like i look really haggard, unkempt and unhealthy. ::: confessions of a 23 , almost 24 year old optician. ::: i dont consider myself 'pretty' when i see all these really pretty girls all around me. and then i pass myself in the mirror and its like good lord how i have not gotten beat up yet. i dont think i'm a total loss, but i think i'm acceptable. am i being vain? me me me me me. I I I I I . i sound like such a chick right now. i gotta stop. 

so i think i probably loose like half of my readers when i post incredibly long blog posts. i'm not really sure. i always feel like im rambling. it try to keep it interesting. i was thinking of stopping right now. but i still have stuff to say. so you'll just have to deal with it. 

i'm craving rice lately. 

i recently had probably the best meal ive ever had ever. 

its called the righteous rice bowl and its from cosmic cafe downtown hangtown. best choice i ever made ... (second to my choice of peanut butter panda puffs with vanilla coconut milk, NOM) . 

basically what it is is this: brown basmati rice, balsamic beans, sprouts, cabbage, carrots, cheese & avocado. -- it also comes with salsa, cilantro & cilantro sour cream , but i hate cilantro & salsa is like a hit and miss thing for me -- so basically its healthy, filling, delicious and nutritious. 

i hope your mouth is watering. i am so excited to go to work 

tomorrow so i can eat my left overs for lunch. for real. 

AND lastly, i saw that once in a life time solar eclipse. and it was probably the weirdest experience ever. mostly because i was thinking about it pretty deep and i also felt super strange when it happened. i felt really funky. must be something to it. i'll research it later. but i was also just thinking about how badass it is that all i had to do was look up and have some ghetto rigged devices to view it and bam, history was witnessed by me. i did drive up to tahoe and hit up east shore for the event , just to make it extra special. but really i could have stayed home and checked it out all the same. its just cool to me how this happened where i could see it. i think only oregon, california, the southern parts of nevada, utah, northern arizona and new mexico and then parts of texas could see it . oh and some of china and all of japan. thats like, a lot of other places that didnt get to see it. so it was really , miraculous. i went up with one of my best friends brooke. it was such a great time. here we are , and here is the views we came across.... after these photos i am signing off and checking out until next time. thanks for reading. oh and if you made it this far, you are allowed to comment. you dont need an account to comment. just sign your name so i dont get a billion anonymous comments. it makes me think to hard and i cant deal with that. 

adios. 

the ring of fire on my hand

me in the forest 

brooke and i viewing the eclipse. 

we had polarized sunglasses on too

brooke and i in the woods

brooke on the beach

my trusty car in the woods

 

the most beautiful scene to lay my eyes on before heading up

East Shore Tahoe Night Sky

East Shore Lake Tahoe
10:30PM
30 second exposure , 3200 ISO, F2.8, 24mm Manual



in love with this photograph.
so proud that i took it.
probably the one and only best
photograph i'll ever take in my life.

Tahoe Photoshoot

Logan, Chris, KerryLynn & I went to Tahoe last night for a very creative, fun and exciting photoshoot... here are some of the random ones we took. the real photos will be released later..

I was sooo pleased with myself for getting all these images and directing and everything. Thanks SO much Logan & Chris for asking me to do the photos for you! I can't wait to get them out to you guys and show everyone .

Bonobo - Kong

tahoe - our backdrop

testing

love for my mitch

testing

logan - outlined

sweet!

chris, kerry lynn, logan

me.. love for mitch

testing

duel

bows & arrows

i wish i could put certain moments , smells , sights or feelings into a jar to save for later. to show people who couldnt see, smell, see or feel what i did. just a simple glass jar/... to bottle things up in and put on a shelf for later.

i suppose that's what the mind is for. all i need is a projector screen for it. or something.

Tahoe for the 4th of July !

heading up there this late afternoon with Audra - we've been goin up to her Cabin in Southlake since 2004. We are mainly gonna relax and go to the beach and get a mountain tan (you get soo tan in the mountains its wild) and im bringing my hula hoop and meetin up with some friends for some good times. very excited to have a little get-away.

this picture makes me miss mitch ... my smile is so big because he makes me smile that big all the time. and he picked me that pink flower... we had so much fun. he is the best . i never thought i'd be so happy . but i am. he completes me . as cheesy as that may sound. :) i love you mitch meyer!

the gispy kings :: i love them... music with energy and the ability to get your body movin ::
Gipsy Kings - Pharaon by Tui Petra

super slacking

i've been such a slacker here in the blog world! sorry!
not like anyone reads my junk anyway. but still.
sooo not much is new....

just packing my bags for a trip to UTAH!

then when i get back from utah next monday i have a busy rest of the month... mayas 21st bday is on friday at her & gabes house , its gonna be so fun. then i have a wedding to shoot on saturday. thennnn on the 25th i have my surgery.

i'm stoked for another year in Tahoe for the 4th of July. last years 4th was super hilarious and crazy ... brooke & i went to tahoe to her friends house on the lake and it was just some wild weird party and we walked out into the lake to watch fireworks. i love & miss my brooke! ah! '
then on july 5th... BRENT COMES HOME! i havent seen him for a year .. i miss the guts out of him.

tomorrow i am going to the lagoon (2nd picture down below) for a swim & tan sesh with audra. jackie would come... but she missed her flight back from florida. haha. i miss jackie. i miss all my friends.

lets get summer started

here are some good photos to get your summer time vibe flowin :