why do you like me?

why do people like me? what is it about me that people like? cause i have no idea.

i don't think i'm that cool.. i've always kinda thought i was a loser who made bad jokes, made faces in pictures and laughed at inappropriate things. i'm also kind of rude and i spend way too much time on the computer. (in my defense, i live in the country & i hate driving all around & spending money. plus i am taking online courses.. so back off)

but i really am curious. WHY do you like ME? i want reasons.. i need to compile them and put them in a notebook to remind myself that at one point people actually liked me.. just in case everyone stops liking me for some reason. (see above: 'rude' & 'laughs at inappropriate things')

in the mean time.. while you are thinking of reasons , here are some "behind the scenes" photos of the photoshoot i did with Ryan Muirhead .. this was after the shoot was over and we wanted to take some goofy photos before packing up.

the models : nicole bullard, myself, lianna hartley & alissa sosa

here i am making a face at a photoshoot
... i have no idea what i was doing :

"pouting" i think i am the only one who did it right.. haha :

laughing ! :

no idea whats going on here :

we were tickling each other.. liannas idea.. hahaha :

i can not remember what was going on here.. but it is GREAT :

outlander

so i am on page 541. there are 850 pages total. i LOVE this book. it makes me wish that it was my life. back in the day. with some brave, handsome, cool scottish lad who loved me. but nope. i'm just in california. with no one who loves me.

i wish men would read this book. and learn a few things. i wish this book would be made into a movie. directed by james cameron. because then it would be really long. but i wish i would be cast as the role of claire. i am too young. but still.

today i am going over to jackies. jackies boyfriend is in canada for a week, so we are having a girls week. it should be good fun. oooh yes. tayler is coming jan 20th and stayin with me until jan 29th. i am sooo excited. we are going to road trip down to san fransisco for a couple days. then back to my house (homebase) and then drive up to humboldt and check it out up there since thats where we want to move eventually. it will be rad. i can not wait to see the redwoods again. YES!

last night i went to see avatar in 3d (for the 2nd time) with gabe sady, megan, lisa, & garrett. the 2nd time around i noticed some cheesy parts and some connections. but over all i still really liked it. and it STILL made me wish i was Na'vi and hate mankind. haha dang.. these are two photos i took at beehive. i love the first one. i just think its random and weird. and the 2nd one.. of course i love it. its black peach tea mixed with black vanilla bean tea. no sugar, cream or honey added.. perfect as is. i crave it. i also crave white peach oolong tea from chinatown in sanfransisco. ahhh im goin NUTz.

evelyn eslava - old abandoned house

so this was my first photoshoot i did while in utah - it was FREEZING. i hope it doesnt translate into my photos. my lips were purple afterward. hahaha. i love how soft evelyn's photos turn out. very feminine and unique. i really love it. and i'm even showing off my earring in some of the photos! my nose is quite pink in most of these because of the cold.

in the last photo here .. i made that dress it was a boring velvet dress but i took it in and chopped the sleeves and made it shorter.. i love it. it is tight tho and i have a pretty big bum.. so i gotta be careful.. haha .

PLAN B

on monday i had a shoot with mikenna & phillip downtown outside. too cold. we could not function. so we slacked around a bit and went to beehive for rejuvenation then fiiiinally decided to get our butts back to the studio and get some images. well we ended up having waaaay too much fun and they both "mocked" me... well, my size. believe it or not .. these have not been tampered with and the people (mikenna, phillip & myself) in these photos are of actual size. yes i am actually that small apparently. i never realized until i saw these photos. i still am having a hard time believing that. or maybe its just them who are just unusually tall? you be the judge..

you can view phillips blog here : manicproject

more more

those are some of my other photos.. jozef, ryan & mikenna. i am so pleased. more to come. enjoy.

man oh man. i am so exhausted. i can not wait to go home.. even tho i am gonna miss it here big time. i feel like i've had a ton of time and used it all to the max but that i still need more because i havent done EVERYTHING that i need.

i'm watching "hes just not that into you" its weird. i dont really like movies like this but ive heard people say its good. i should go to sleep. but this movie. dang. tomorrow i am going to eggs in the city with charlie at 8. then i have a shoot at 10 with mikenna and phillip.


i miss anouk.

5 photoshoots.. wow

so here i am . . . in utah. day 4. i've shot with evelyn, jake, john, ryan & jozef. tomorrow i am shooting with mikenna and that will be awesome. here are some pictures from my shoot with john - i haven't recieved photos from the other shoots yet.. its gonna be awesome when i do .. im really excited. anyway.. tell me what you think.. (anyone can comment on my blog, i have it open to all viewers. hey)

2010?

feels like just yesterday it was 2009...



me, jenna, mikenna, ashlyn & mackenzie .. mikenna had a little dinner party.


here is one of my photos from my 3rd photoshoot with john paul... more to come


i'll post a real blog post sometime later. i've been slacking on blogging lately. sorry..